Thursday, July 2, 2015

My Book

So as most you know by now, I have written a book. It was published in 2012 and has been sitting on the virtual shelves on Amazon and Barnes and Noble, as well as other book sellers. Here is a brief summary of my book.

"Amanda has had dreams her entire life, dreams that oddly enough became reality. It took her years to realize that her dreams were visions and that her future holds more for her than she could have ever imagined. At her high school graduation, she has a vision of her death. Amanda becomes very cautious and paranoid, until her second year in college when she meets Dominic, a mysterious student who will bring her life more meaning. Little does she know, Dominic is a Devlock, one of the creatures who will eventually kill her. 

Throughout her and Dominic’s on and off again relationship, Amanda not only has to deal with the fact that she will die within the next few years, but that it is Dominic and his kind that inevitably will kill her. Can their love pull them through the brutal battles that lie ahead, or will it be the unavoidable destroyer?"


July 3, 2010

So, I began this blog with the intention to only write about things I am passionate about, like my previous 'Touchy Subjects' post. I did not want to put too much personal information on here, but today I feel like remembering...

If you read my "Defying the Odds" post, you know that I was pregnant before my beautiful daughter Tamina. His name was Elijah and I lost him when I was 6 months pregnant. Elijah was 11 oz and was 10 inches long. He was beautiful and I miss him so much every day. Elijah was born on March 21, 2010, but his due date was July 3rd. I find this day hard sometimes, and while I know it isn't until tomorrow I feel the need to share and remember my little man. Here is a poem I wrote for Adrian, the first son that I lost, and Elijah after losing him. It gives me peace and reminds me that I will see my boys again one day!

I love my unborn children,
That God took away from me.
I asked him why he did it,
and he replied "You see, 
I did it for the ones you love,
the two that are now watching from above."

But why did you take my boys, 
I do not understand.
"I did not take them from you dear,
They never left your side.
You'll see them once again, my dear.
At heavens gates they'll cry,
'I love you Mommy, welcome home.' and whisper in your ear,
'I missed you Mommy, where have you been?
We've been waiting here for years.'

You'll walk to them both standing there,
tears filling all your eyes.
You'll grab your boys and cry in joy,
There will never be another goodbye.

You'll kiss your kids upon the cheek
and grab their tiny hands.
You'll never have to cry again,
You've come to the promise land."


I miss my boys every single day, and sometimes I find myself wondering why Tamina was able to be saved but they could not do anything to save Elijah when they were practically the same in all ways. I would never change what happened because I would not have my Tamina, but it makes me wonder sometimes.

I love you Elijah and Adrian, you boys will always be with me!!

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